Good Vibes here
Some people are so broken,
They get mad at you for being whole.
If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I bet they’d live a lot differently. When you look into infinity, you realize there are more important things than what people do all day.
"I came from Mexico."
"Why’d you come?"
"Everybody comes for the money."
"Were you scared?
GOSH. I am really sucking it up at blogging on here. Time goes by so fast and days are so filled with stuff to do but at the same time a lot of the time I don’t really have a lot to do and I just waste my time doing nothing… Time is fickle in that way. When you need more of it it seems to trickle by like water and when you don’t need so much of it it slows down ridiculously… to the point that I think I have time to waste. In time I am learning that the concept of “wasted time” is one of the worst things our society has taught us… there shouldn’t be a time when wasting time is okay, because once its gone it’s gone, right? Believe it or not, this has just now really started sinking in. Call it maturity I guess.
Anyways, time rant over. I have been trying to process the fact that I graduate in 4 months (for the record, I started this blog my first semester of college). Unbelievable.
I’m trying to find a job but I really have no idea how to start. The task is daunting and titanic and seemingly impossible, and I have been putting it off for as long as I can… but February is when I start looking!
The Aggie and I are more than amazing. I can’t believe we have been dating for a year and a half now! He is truly one of the handful of people keeping me sane right now.
As of now my life is being consumed by thoughts of the future, the fear of that future, and the dread that I am not ready. I’ve had 6 internships and I have a really good head on my shoulders, but sometimes I over think, go into overdrive, panic, and become frozen in these fears. That’s one of my biggest battles as of now. Trying to keep my head level as I try to prove to others, not just myself, that I have worthy capabilities.
I hope y’all are doing so well, much love and good vibes to you all! :)